Wednesday, March 24, 2010

O Happy Dagger..

Two very diverse and frankly conflicting influences led to his particular train of though.. which led to this post.. Its also led me to seriously question something i very firmly believe in.. the concept of a "Happily ever after"..
The first is an observation that I made during a conversation about the afore mentioned concept with a certain fellow victim of the down-on-your-luck-in-love syndrome.. every single story of great love from literature that i've ever enjoyed, never runs its course.. its always a wild and passionate love that survives despite the lovers not ending up together for one reason or another.. one of the following always happens..

- One of them is killed by an accident/terminal illness, while the other holds their hand in the final moment in the hospital.

- They realise that they cannot be together in life so kill themselves so they can be together in death.

- Or (and this one's my favorite) the great sacrifice.. when one of them pushes the other out of the way of a stray bullet/speeding automobile, and dies in the other's arms with a final "I love you".

The other point, ruminating on the first one while we discuss this ofcourse, comes from a certain high-grossing-giant-special-effects-hollywood-extravaganza kinda film that i rather enjoyed. The hero.. no villain.. no hero.. well its unclear what he really is, makes a statement towards the end of the movie.. "You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain"..

while this is not a direct reference to the theme brought up by Point One, one can draw a parallel.. which brings me to the conclusion that planted the seed of doubt in my firm fairytale fancies.. What if all great love is doomed to an extremely short shelf life? What if the only kind of love that really survives in the long run is the average, mediocre kind? but most importantly.. what do you do when the great, all consuming love just doesn't seem enough?

O true apothecary! Thy drugs are quick.
Thus with a kiss I die.

Romeo had it easy..

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

The Bradley Cooper Project : v 2.1

Courtesy The Wanderer
First week of gym over.. typing with very stiff arms.. has been a week of self discovery :

- Can still run 5 kms.. not jog.. run.. :)
- Pushups.. 3 sets of 15.. way harder than it sounds..
- my instructor is a year younger than me.. taller by a few inches and looks like a fucking Adonis.. and looks incredulous everytime i stuggle with the weight.. I am going to kill him..
- ideal time for workout.. early morning.. its when the office crowd works out, so people around are in worse shape than you.. helps your ego when you cant finish the 5th pull up to watch somebody struggling on the treadmill after half a km..

More later.. must fall down and die for a bit..

Monday, March 15, 2010


I don't know what it is
That makes me feel alive
I don't know how to wake
The things that sleep inside
I only wanna see the light
That shines behind your eyes

I hope that I can say
The things I wish I'd said
To sing my soul to sleep
And take me back to bed
You want to be alone
When we could be alive instead

Because we need each other
We believe in one another
And I know we're going to uncover
What's sleepin' in our soul

Friday, March 12, 2010


- Available: Nein
- Age: 23
- Annoyance: Never ending exams
- Animal: Cat

- Beer: Homer no function beer well without.
- Birthday/Birthplace: June 26/New Delhi
- Body Part on opposite sex: Lower Back.
- Best feeling in the world: Motorcycle.. Delhi winter.. speed limit??
- Blind or Deaf: Blind.
- Best weather: Foggy.
- Been in Love: Yes.
- Been on stage?: Yes, not as often as I'd like though.
- Believe in yourself?: Yes, resolutely
- Believe in life on other planets: Yes.
- Believe in miracles: Hoping for a few..
- Believe in Magic: Not really..
- Believe in God: Selfishly.

- Car/Bike : Refer Best feeling in the world
- Candy: Orange rock candy..
- Color: Blue, White and red
- Cried in school: Yup..
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate.
- Country to visit: New Zealand, Thailand, USA

- Day or Night: Night.
- Danced: Yes.. and will continue to DAMN IT!!
- Dance in the rain?: Yes.
- Do the splits?: Not since I was very VERY young..

- Eggs: Cant boil them to save my life.
- Eyes: Cat.
- Everyone has: ???

- First crush: 7th Grade.
- First thoughts waking up: Somebody kill the Laughter Club..
- Food: Drool..

- Greatest Fear: Mediocrity
- Giver or taker: About down the middle..
- Goals: Clear exams.. Oh god please clear exams..
- Get along with your parents?: Always, they are my best friends.

- Hair Colour: Black
- Height: 6'0"
- Happy: Mostly..
- How do you want to die: Refer Best feeling in the world.. Remove Helmet..
- Health freak?: Kinda..
- Hate: Strong but short lived..

- Ice Cream: Mint Chocolate Chip..
- Instrument: violin..

- Jewelry: Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..
- Job: Meh..

- Kids: Yes.. Someday..
- Kickboxing or karate: Kickboxing..
- Keep a journal?: You're reading it..

- Love: Always..
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yes. Not for a while though..
- Love at first sight: Happens..

- Mooned anyone?: Nope..
- Marriage: Indifferent..
- Motion sickness?: For a while.. as a kid.. got over it though..

- Number of Siblings: one.. ah to be an only child..
- Number of Piercings: None.. Tattoo though.. :)

- One wish: World peace.. :P

- Place you'd like to live: London.
- Perfect Pizza: Cheese.. lots of it..
- Pepsi/Coke: Coke..

- Questionaires: Random..

- Reason to cry: Stagnation..
- Reality T.V.: Fascinating in a Ewww what is that? kinda way..
- Roll your tongue in a circle: Fold it into an origami duck..

- Song: Hallelujah - Leonard Cohen
- Shoe size: 11
- Slept outside: Yup..
- Seen a dead body? Yes.
- Smoked?: Yes.
- Skinny dipped?: Yes.
- Shower daily?: Ummmm do weekends bumming around at home count?
- Sing well?: Occasionally, much to my listner's surprise..
- In the shower?: Always..
- Swear?: #$@%$**^%$$
- Stuffed Animals?: Bleh..
- Single/Group dates: Both.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries.
- Scientists need to invent: A selective memory obliviator.. ala Eternal sunshine..

- Time for bed: Varies..
- Thunderstorms: Likes.. Lots of lightening
- TV: Rarely..
- Touch your tongue to your nose: 'ow 'wath?

- Unpredictable: Mood..

- Vegetable you hate: All the Lauki-Tinda family type. And the Karela.
- Vegetable you love: Potato.. :)
- Vacation spot: Nice.. sighhh

- Weakness: Engines.
- When you grow up: Never!
- Worst feeling: Waking up next to somebody you feel nothing for.
- Wanted to be a model?: Nope.. Im a realist..
- Where do we go when we die: On a boat, across the great sea.
- Worst weather: Hot and sticky.

-X-Rays: whaaaa?

- Year it is now: 2010
- Yellow: who you callin' yeller?

- Zoo animal: I'm bored of this..
- Zodiac sign: Cancer..

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Dont think twice, Its alright..

It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If’in you don’t know by now
An' it ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It’ll never do some how.
When your rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone
You're the reason I'm trav'lin' on
Don't think twice, it's all right

It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
That light I never knowed
An' it ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
I'm on the dark side of the road
but I wish there was somethin' you would do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talkin' anyway
So don't think twice, it's all right

It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
Like you never done before
It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
I can't hear you any more
I'm a-thinkin' and a-wond'rin' walkin’ down the road
I once loved a woman, a child I'm told
I give her my heart but she wanted my soul
But don't think twice, it's all right

So long, Honey Babe
Where I'm bound, I can't tell
But Goodbye's too good a word, babe
So I'll just say fare thee well
I ain't sayin' you treated me unkind
You could have done better but I don't mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
But don't think twice, it's all right