Another Day Another Frostbitten Finger...

The worst thing to do on a winter morning is get out of bed at 5:30 am and take a bath... not to mention drive 11 kms to a highly boring but highly necessary four hour class.. blind as a friggin bat with nothing in sight but the flashing hazard lights of the car in front of you..
Needless to say the little half hour vigil in sight of the express building gets more and more painful.. especially on an empty stomach.. and especially if it turns out to be fruitless yet again..
but then i have the joyous 10 km bicycle ride later in the day to look forward to... not to mention another equally boring but equally necessary class..
Ah the joys of winter in the city...
Humbug..

Nobody Else Will..

If not for you,there would be
so little of this part of me.
If not for you, the skies above
would not be blue or even high enough.

I see the skies... I see your eyes...
I see the colors are passing by...
I'm staying here, with you, my dear.

If not for you, there would be
a bigger hole inside of me.
If not for you, the stars above
would not be new or try to carry love.
I see the skies... I see your eyes...
I see the colors are passing by...
I'm staying here, with you, my dear.

I'm telling you the honest truth.
I won't let you down again,
I just want to be a good man.
Won't let you down again,
I just want to be your best friend.

And I'll be there for you,
in darkest nights when love is lying still.
I'll be there for you, to hold you tight.
Be there for you when nobody else will.

Hazel eyes..

Standing on the corner
I used to watch her
and how she smiled with her hazel eyes.

But a child she was
so unaware
of the things she could do with her hazel eyes.

Such a joy she was
than elven child
made your day with one look from her hazel eyes.

Like limpid pools
they called to me
to look beyond her hazel eyes.

And tell her that
I, too, can feel
the pain she hides behind her hazel eyes.

I took her hand
and swore to fight
the fears that darken her hazel eyes.

So I can stand
and watch again
while she smiles just for me with her hazel eyes.

One day at a time..

Things are different.. It doesnt hurt quite so much.. Its easier to breathe.. to smile.. to go on with life.. to set goals.. to work towards them.. im not the desperate inconsolable wreck that i was.. but that doesnt mean i've given up.. doesnt mean i've stopped believing..
Life's a lot longer than what you and i may think.. and time changes us all.. for the better or worse.. our paths may have parted.. but they will cross again.. and again.. and again.. because some things are just meant to be.. and love waits for when the time's right..
I will hang on.. in that stubborn as hell way that i always do.. and you may hate me.. or just not care.. but you wont forget.. not the pain i caused.. nor the life we spent together.. nor the fact that I will always be there when you chose to turn around and look..
One phonecall a day.. and one day at a time.. I have all the time in the world.. I have a lifetime..

All the same..

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
what you'll do
I don't mind
I don't care
As long as you're here


Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same


Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill, yeah
I have the will,
to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am

I dont mind,
I dont care
As long as you're here
Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same
In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same

Go ahead say it
You're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are now
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

Insomnia..

I dreamed of you last night..
of an accident I thought was fate..
of burning questions
and inadequate answers..
of dignity and desperation..
of Why's i could not answer..
of the love that just wasn't enough..

I dreamed of you last night..
It seemed so real
but faded away the moment I opened my eyes..
Just like a dream.. Just like all dreams..
Leaving behind sleepless nights..
Just like the ones before.. Just like the ones to come..
My weary eyes still waiting..
Hoping..
for the night I'll dream again..

Nobody's fault but mine...

Nobody's fault but mine
It's nobody's fault but mine
Try to save my soul tonight
Oh, it's nobody's fault but mine